I don't even like smokers OR blue eyes. But I want it.
Stop, whoa, back it up. When did Leo become hot? Not just hot, but the emotionally distant, dirty, scarred, tough sexy guy that is virtually irresistible? When Titanic came out, I was in middle school and did not find him attractive at all. Even watching its reruns on TBS, I only find Jack Dawson sexy when he’s being a smart-ass or yelling (so sue me, I like a temper, we’ll get to that later). Between his asshole exterior hiding a heart of gold in Blood Diamond, his psychotic character in Shutter Island, mobster ties in The Departed, and the amount of murder and injuries he’s endured in Body of Lies, I’m officially smitten. I used to think he was too pretty, after all, I’m the lady, I should be the pretty one in any relationship/hook-up/adventure. But now, he is a roughed up piece of badass symbolizing all that is man. How old is this trick, again? Doesn’t really matter, I guess, I know it’s over 18. HEY OH!
So now on to my questionable points-of-interest in men. Yes, I like a bit of a angry streak. Not directed at me, hell no, I’ll get pissed off and snap right back. However, some inner turmoil in a dark and twisty soul is intriguing. I also like a guy into old school comic books and likes to play games. Apparently I’m into bipolar, immature men. Wonderful. I’m just going to hope this is a phase and by the time I hit 25 I realize I would like to date someone who isn’t insane. *Fingers crossed*
I’ve also had more than a few conversations about what people biologically need. Are we programmed to have a soul mate to be complete? We are naturally social creatures, it makes sense, but I’m a firm believer someone should be a whole person on their own before settling down with a soul mate. Thoughts?
Apologies for the sporadic nature of this post. As most of you know, this is how my mind works on a regular basis.
Jazzzzz said,
October 19, 2010 at 9:18 pm
I definitely agree, more than anything, that one should discover who they are before settling down. I didn’t really follow that myself, but I’m trying my damnedest to make it work (becoming a complete person) while still maintaining the relationship I have because this is the relationship I want.
To keep things short, he gives me reassurance that he will support me in (most) changes and self-discovery, and insists that I don’t have to limit myself (outside of monogomy, of course) because I may “believe” that he’d think me stupid, or immature, or… whatever. This is comforting, and after having a short discussion about this topic with him recently, I do feel less constrained by what he may think of me.
ANYWAY, but no, I don’t necessarily think that we need a soul mate to be complete, nor is there only one person in the world that can fit the “soul mate” requirements. It’s a nice thought, but in reality, there are so many people in the world and everyone has flaws and strengths that we will not always be able to ignore, or appreciate, respectively. We get annoyed. We get bored. It happens. “Let the chips fall where they may.”
I’d encourage anyone to participate in self-discovery exercises throughout their young and vibrant life before settling down… then again, some people desire a family and all that right off the bat.
Um.. I guess I’m done, because I have to go to my exercise class and like… work on my rock-hard abs.
~Jaz
Jazzzzz said,
October 19, 2010 at 9:20 pm
PS. Leonardo DiCaprio is fucking ugly as hell, and you are weird.